My Life.. My Story.. My World..

2006-06-08T00:26:00.000+08:00

we changed or things changed?

2006-06-04T23:43:00.000+08:00

2006-05-21T01:06:00.000+08:00

i juz simply hate you.

I'm not important to u anyway.

Little things and you get angry with me.

I was wrong to say you are good.

*i'm taking back wad i said.

2006-05-20T23:52:00.000+08:00

I hate you.

Contented

2006-05-20T01:41:00.000+08:00

I suddenly realised... That you are so good.. compared to others.. you are just different..
Everytime, i feel that you are 'just another guy' who thinks that u alr treat ur partner very well. But now.. Out of a sudden.. i just realised its not what i thought..

Having you is something that i should be happy of..

*Now i have love u more..

Pulau Ubin

2006-05-13T23:12:00.000+08:00

Ok. Went to Pulau Ubin yesterday to stay for a night there.
Basically there's nothing. Really nth. Its jux trees n trees n ferns n grasses EVERYWHERE. And not to left out the most important thing. Mosquitoes. And there are small ants which bite! fierce. And theres nth interesting. Also the swimming pool are extremely dirty. By night time u when the lights shine on the water, u can see the dirt, and it looks MILKY. -_________-" its jux disgusting.
I hate Pulau Ubin.

2006-05-07T23:41:00.000+08:00

i got things to blog..

Happy 5th Month.!!. ^-^

Lol

Delicacies?

2006-04-21T00:23:00.000+08:00

Ok. Went to his house on Monday and watch some Andy Lau's shows. -_____-"

Im hungry after awhile and he said he go fry 'seaweed chicken'.
Anyway guess wad is this first.

YES. iTS THE SEAWEED CHICKEN.

So we ended up eating this... which was only half successful.

and a spghegetti too.

anyway i managed to take a photo of Ryan wearing sunglass! ^-^

Escape

2006-04-09T23:37:00.000+08:00

Yeah went to Escape with Him today. We got in the entrance free! Not sure why. But a group of tourists said they have extra tickets so they're giving it to us. Hehe. Save money.
Anyway its a bad day for going to Escape today.
1. Rain like Hell
2. Almost all rides closed due to raining and maintainance.
But we had a fun time despite all these and we stayed there for about 6 hours. I mean how bad can that be? lol.
And he bought me this super big candy floss which cost $3. Imagine $1 is for normal size, whats more $3?

Anyway theres this Haunted House which is not at all scary but then I got scared by it because of this 'ghost' behind me. -_____-"
Then Alex said,"do you believe i will turn around n beat him?" And the ghost stopped following us. Lol. We suspect its a chinese ghost.

I'm just happy cuz you remember....

Jokes

2006-04-07T11:24:00.000+08:00

ok i'll blog some jokes. But NOT yours Daniel. lol..

A tour bus driver is driving with a bus load of seniors down a highway when he is tapped on his shoulder by a little old lady. She offers him a handful of peanuts, which he gratefully munches up.After about 15 minutes, she taps him on his shoulder again and she hands him another handful of peanuts.She repeats this gesture about five more times. When she is about to hand him another batch again he asks the little old lady, " why don't you eat the peanuts yourselves?"."We can't chew them because we've no teeth", she replied. The puzzled driver asks, "Why do you buy them then?" The old lady replied, "We just love the chocolate around them."

It pays to be careful around old people.

************************************************************************************************* Brian came home from the pub late one Friday evening stinking drunk, as he often did, and crept into bed beside his wife who was already asleep. He gave a peck on the cheek and fell asleep. When he awoke he found a strange man standing at the end of his bed wearing a long flowing white robe. "Who the hell are you?" Demanded Brian, "and what are you doing in my bedroom?". The mysterious Man answered "This isn't your bedroom and I'm St Peter". Brian was stunned "You mean I'm dead!!! That can't be, I have so much to live for, I haven't said goodbye to my family.... you've got to send me back straight away". St Peter replied "Yes you can be reincarnated but there is a catch. We can only send you back as a dog or a hen." Brian was devastated, but knowing there was a farm not far from his house, he asked to be sent back as a hen. A flash of light later he was covered in feathers and clucking around pecking the ground. "This ain't so bad" he thought until he felt this strange feeling welling up inside him. The farmyard rooster strolled over and said "So you're the new hen, how are you enjoying your first day here?" "It's not so bad" replies Brian, "but I have this strange feeling inside like I'm about to explode". "You're ovulating" explained the rooster, "don't tell me you've never laid an egg before". "Never" replies Brian "Well just relax and let it happen" And so he did and after a few uncomfortable seconds later, an egg pops out from under his tail. An immense feeling of relief swept over him and his emotions got the better of him as he experienced motherhood for the first time. When he laid his second egg, the feeling of happiness was overwhelming and he knew that being reincarnated as a hen was the best thing that ever happened to him... ever!!! The joy kept coming and as he was just about to lay his third egg he felt an enormous smack on the back of his head and heard his wife shouting "Brian, wake up you drunken bas*ard, you're sh*tting the bed"

4th month

2006-04-07T11:04:00.000+08:00

Anyway Happy 4th month.

2006-04-07T10:45:00.000+08:00

I asked you abt it even when the truth is so obvious.
Not i dont believe the facts.
Its just that i wana see a hope in our relationship.

But all u did was deny and deny.
You said you dont wana lose me.
But did u prove it?

Fine. Until the end when i really wanted to go then you admit.
I asked why did u deny but got no answers from you.
Then you wanted me to forget abt it and dont talk abt it.
Okies since you said that.

You said for this relationship to last we need trust n understanding.
And you want it to last.
But did you let me trust you?
Its not the first time you broke the trust, but the third.
Plus its serious lying.
How long can we last without trust?

I believe

2006-03-31T14:33:00.000+08:00

You said if that's the path i want.. Then go ahead..
But you are stopping what I'm doing now.

I know that there are other people.
But i dont want.

Dont make me give up what i choose.

I believe him that's why i chose to believe.

The Promise

2006-03-19T22:26:00.000+08:00

I've fulfill my promise to you.

Now is your turn to keep the promises.

Promise of being honest.
Promise of not making me sad.

You promised.
Dont ever break it.

Path

2006-03-16T23:32:00.000+08:00

i walked this far just to be with you.
It might seem that i've stopped.
Yes it seemed.
But no
I'm only slowing down.
But continuing the journey.

As i walk down
Give me your support.
Tell me your love is true.
Tell me its not fake.
Tell me that it exists.
And still exists
And will continue to exist.

Be my light.
Lid my path.
Dont make me lose my way.
Your the only hope for me to complete the journey.
And only true you will do the magic.

But if you want me to stop.
Tell me.
I will.
If it's truly what you want.
I will stop and walk another path.
Not ever crossing yours again.

2006-03-16T18:24:00.000+08:00

You denied even when its so obvious.

You swear that you never did it.

But they already told me the truth.

The truth which i dont mind.

I just want to hear it from you.

That's all i ask for.

Is that too much?

Do you want me to wait? Cuz i'm willing to.

But do you even care if i leave?

Or do you want me to leave?

Tell me what to do.

Please.

2006-03-11T00:19:00.000+08:00

Which is the truth?

Which are the lies?

Tell me.So i will know.

So i will know what decision to make.

So i will know if my decision is correct.

So i wll know whether i will regret.

So i will know if u are true.

Pls dont deny when i asked.

So i will know there's a glimpse of hope.

Hope of not leaving you.

Hope of continuing to love you.

Heaven Forbits

2006-03-10T23:57:00.000+08:00

Love..... is the only word to describe my feelings for you.

Pain..... is the only word I can use to describe.

Pain i can endure..

Yet...

Our love is forbidden.

I can only choose to leave..

Quietly..

With silent tears flowing..

Not regreting.Yet turning back.

Jux to have one last look at you.

Telling you,

I Love You
I Miss You.

Wishing you all the best.

3rd Month Anniversary

2006-03-07T21:52:00.000+08:00

One month past so fast..

Was supposed to see him today.But couldnt.

Nvm.Make it up tml.

Happy 3rd Mth Anniversary..

Tears

2006-03-01T20:25:00.000+08:00

His tears just dropped.

For the first time.

In front of me.

He said to me,"Dont cry."

And yet he cried.

2006-02-28T23:20:00.000+08:00

She sees memories everywhere go goes.

and like a river they flows down..

Nobody understands.

Trying hard to hang on till that very day.

But seems like the air is depleting.

Calling for help and there's none.

But determined as she is

She's gonna make it till that

Very Day.....

Its the love that gives her the strength..

World without you

2006-02-28T22:41:00.000+08:00

Time just pass by slowly whenn i'm working

But whenever he's around..tiime flies...

He's always there to take care of me

And yet got sick himself all the tiime

Always help me to remember my things

And yet forget his own.

Always give me the best whenever he can

And yet deprived himself.

Now everything changes..

I'm just so lost without his presence

I'm just so used to him being my everything

My Everything...

But nothiing is the same...

for the tiime beiing

Yes. For the tiime being i beliieve.

Cuz he promised

That everything will be fine

He promised

That he'll be there to celebrate that special day

Juz 17days more of waiiting

and i'll know if he's able to fulfill his promise

Yes now all i can do is to pray and wait.

And i want to tell him very much face to face

that..

"I love you"

It's a promise i made to myself and him.

2006-02-12T23:19:00.000+08:00

Went to Alex's grandma house just now to have dinner. The food were very delicious.. haha.. There's two dogs in the house and they are SUPER fat and so cute! Then his Ah Ma gave me a red packet and after that his Papa drove me home.

Anyway, i finally bought his present today in Paragon. But the thing is.....Valentine's Day i have to work! *sobZ* nvm... I'm very optimistic..

Everyday will be Valentines' Day =D

i got the power

2006-02-10T00:05:00.000+08:00

Last night went Party World with my collegues. Yeah that was fun and we all sang like it's nobody's business. And we drank too.. lol.. I also.. So that was it when Alex came to fetch me.. He was angry with me for drinking. Really angry.
And i had a hard time making him happy. lolx. But i still made it.. lol.. Although he never talked much, and really wanted to scold me.. but he never cuz he dont bear to... wahahahaha...

2nd Month

2006-02-07T23:50:00.000+08:00

It's again this date and i asked him when i reached home,

'do you know today is what day?'

'ya la.... Our 2nd month....i will never forget it again....'

And i thought he forgot. Then i realised he purposely came down to fetch me from work even though he's super duper tired. Although we only took photos, but to me it's more than enough. And taking photos is also part of his so-called plan too. lolx.

Unpresent Trust

2006-02-05T21:57:00.000+08:00

Dont bother asking if you dont believe me. What for asked me when u dont wanna believe? I cant be bothered anyway. Cuz i wont be talking to you anymore. I dont wanna waste my effort explaining. I dont have THAT MUCH saliva. Even if i have, i wont be wasting it on you.

Its USELESS, cuz u are 'DEAF'.

Anyway I wont be telling you the truth anymore. No more. You DONT deserve it.

2006-02-04T01:37:00.000+08:00

Sore eyes for 4 days.. Poor me(Madi pity behz).. lol.. So i got 2days MC..

Because of this then i know how fierce he is and how much he cares.. lolx..

2006-02-03T23:52:00.000+08:00

I dont like them.
They think they are sooooo clever.
They think they are always right.
They keep interfering my life.
They keep on stopping me.
They sux like hell.

2006-02-02T23:31:00.000+08:00

2 Feb 2006 is a day to remember.

Forever in my heart.

Forever sealed.

Forever unchanged.

And i know its true.....

2006-01-29T23:52:00.000+08:00

Watched Fearless last nite with Alex and his frenz. They're all funny people. Yeah.. Too bad they're bengs.. Including my boi.. lolx..

Anyway guess wad? I saw Debz and jy and we're watching the same movie and same time too.. wahaha.. so qiao.. And that tissue queen actually has no tissues with her..

So something which surprise me is that my Papa actually let me go watch that 1130pm show with him. Could be because its chinese new year EVE.. haha.. then he is in this high mood.. lol..

Then today is the most boring new year i've ever had.. Very few people only.. My cousin went overseas studying. Then also have 3 families never come. That means less angbao..*sobz*

2006-01-05T22:53:00.000+08:00

O'level results coming out in mid february! Read it in the newspaper. Lian He Wan Bao. Haha. Go complain them if the news is not accurate.

Missing

2005-12-30T21:48:00.000+08:00

I miss my dear! lolx.. Haix it's abt army again.. But i dont know exactly what happened.. Jux couldnt contact him the whole day.. oh no!

Messy Life

2005-12-19T13:38:00.000+08:00

Why do some ppl tell the truth? Its either they dont know how to lie or they respect other ppl.. For me? I respect them. But what i got in return were scoldings n nagging.. I can lie easily if i wanted to.
What can i do? They dont trust me.. They kept saying i tou nao jian dan.. If its really like this then i would have got cheated long ago! Ok i know they dont trust the ppl that i'm with then when will they start trusting? Even when i'm 20years old they will still continue being like this? If i am really THAT stupid and so so so trusting then no matter how many years later i will still be that STUPID! This kind of thing how to change.. Sianz ar.. Dont know what to say.

2005-12-13T10:48:00.000+08:00

Yo man i'm back! Haven blog for such a looooong time.. Anybody miss me?? Miss me behz.. Haha.. Working in Giodano Junior... No free time for me to go out with my frenz man... So sianz..

Before i worked in Giodano, i worked in Polar factory.. Haix it was fun there.. Miss those time.. People there are so funny and friendly..

Eh i really dont know what to write.. Haha.. I'll blog another time!

Hatred

2005-11-04T21:45:00.000+08:00

Hatred grows or rather is growing. There's no control over it because those people are just so detestable. Sounds weird when i said i hate them. But the fact is i am angry and i just hate them. The word hate just fits. Very much fitted. They are just so.... detestable? Yes this word fits them too. I have no mood to care about what had happened BUT i'm bothered by it. Just have to say i'm unlucky that i met THOSE people in my life. That is fate. And i'm getting the hell out of it. AND the problem dont lies with me. It lies with them or rather that person. They need self-reflection. Practically dont know that they are in the wrong. And that is failure in life. Just failures.
May God bless them.

Bo liao Blog

2005-10-28T23:42:00.000+08:00

I have nothing to blog.. But i dont want the "scolded by parents" blog be on top.. ahaha.. So shui bian shui bian blog yi xia la..

Anyway today went to causeway with char and her gang and we took alot of photos!!! heiheihei.. (lazy to type in details) lol

~~~~~~~~~finish~~~~~~~~~~~~

Down Down and down

2005-10-23T14:21:00.000+08:00

This is the most terrible time of my life.

Problems with family
Problems with fren
Problems with almost EVERYTHING..

Juz got scolded by my Papa last nite because i talked back. It not i wanted to. I mean i will let you scold if i'm in the wrong or you scold reasonably. Ok i know its wrong to talk back. But why will i talked back? All you all know is to accuse me.. to maligned me.. I'm not stupid to the extent of letting you all scold without a reason.. You always do tt..

The pencil case i bought long ago you said i jux bought it and cannot giv me extra money or else i will spend it.. Wad! I bought it for alr a few months.. And its with the money i saved..Not with the extra money. And you just scold and scold and linked it to my studies and whatsoever.. Fine.. And you said ppl watched tv and i also wanna watch.. Its eleven pm and you still want me to study? All you all know is want me to study the WHOLE DAY with my BUTT STICK TO THE CHAIR.

Then last nite a couple was quarrelling upstairs.. Then i went to study room to close the window.. You asked me not to listen to them(in a harsh tone).. How many times in a day do you wanna maglined me??? When Papa asked you wad happened u told him as if it was my fault.. MY FAULT.. Fine.. That's how i got scolded by my father..

All you know is to believe her.. You nv knew the truth.. You always believe its my fault..

Thanx to you all i finally can cry out heartily..

Zero Zero Guy

2005-10-20T20:24:00.000+08:00

Went to Causeway with Char and Weiling today and had our lunch at foodcourt.
Ok. So there's this guy whom Char saw first and she said his back view is nice.. hmm.. He has small butt and he still wore a tight pants.. That made his butt looked even smaller. hahah.. When he turned around................................................................ Errrrrr.... Not very good looking.. ok la ok la.. Is VERY ugly.. haha..Looks like a cockroach..

Lol.. So we gave him a nick-zero-zero guy.. Cuz i dont think his backview is nice so 0 points for his back and front view surely is 0.. he is SO not good looking.. haha... Think he knew we were talking abt him cuz he turned around to look at us b4 he got out of the foodcourt.. haha.. When its our turn to go, we saw him outside and i saw him eye to eye.. Yuck... Guess wad look he gave me.. An act cool and act shuai face and walked off.. i was like... -_____________-" lol..

Advise: dont ever act shuai or cool or humorous if you are ugly.. Makes you look uglier.. ahaha

1 paper over =D

2005-10-18T17:07:00.000+08:00

Yay.. Olvl bio prac is over! Quite difficult.. lol.. But nvm.. I can smell the air of freedom.. hahahaha.. Waiting and waiting..

I wanna Be with You

2005-10-18T16:42:00.000+08:00

I WANNA BE WITH YOU (Xu Jie Er)
Mei li qi Zong shi lan yang yang di
Lai zhe ni Huai li wan pi xi xi
Shi gai zuo xie shi qing Xin li you tian mi de
Bu xiang yao bu xiang yao zheng kai yan jing

Wo he ni Pin li ru ci jie jin
Mei ya li Zi zai zuo wo zi ji
Di yi ci gan shou Zhe yang ai de jue xin
Zhi xiang yao Zhi xiang yao He ni yi qi

I WANNA BE WITH YOU
Ai ni hao xing fu
Xiang yao he ni jian zao yi ge ai de xiao wu
I WANNA BE WITH YOU
Ai ni hao man zu
Xiang shou zui tian mei de shu fu
You ni de he hu wo bu zai gu du

An Irritating Guy

2005-10-17T20:16:00.000+08:00

He thinks he is SOOOOO clever that he is a genius. Do you know that you are VERY irritating?? Do you know that a lot of ppl dislike you? If you are SOOOOOOOO clever.. Why dint you flare for your Prelims? Huh? huh? HUH?!

He thinks that he is THAT clever to the extent that he dont have to come to school for almost everyday.. Or only reached school when its recess time? What the HELL! How the hell did he score 1/80 for amath when he's SOOOOOOOOO clever.. Or rather FAIL ALLLLL SUBJECTS.. SO STOP ACTING CLEVER.

STOP MAKING STUPID GUESS ABOUT MY NICK.. You are NOT CLEVER..
STop Spoiling other ppl's DAYS.. YOU SUCK TO THE CORE.. YOU SUCK LIKE HELL.. I'm angry since last night after yoy said that sentence.. And STOOOOOP pls.. STOP THINKING THAT YOU ARE CUTE.. YOU ARE NOT.. And forever WONT BE CUTE for goodness sake.. You are just another idiot.. I wonder why do you live in this world.. You shouldnt BE HERE.. JUX FUCK OFFFFFFF.. Not just for my sake but for everyone else.. YOU ARE STUPID..

Stupid and Irritating GUY.. JUS FACK OFF..
I will KILL you if you offend me again..
Bu zhi hui jai de si jia huo

``ConfiRmed``

2005-10-14T23:41:00.000+08:00

I just confirmed.. There's not a tinny weeny hope.. No.. Not at all.. I have to admit its over.. Finally.. That person is moving on.. I have to move on too.. Not gonna stuck here forever.. No.. Not gonna..
No choice.. Life is THAT interesting.. Life is NEVER too boring..

ANyway that pervert is in poly.. But still dont wanna tell me who is he..
-______-" last yr in poly doing biomedical engineering.. Some more very qian da.. dont let me go poly.. say poly not good.. Suan le.. Da ren bu ji xiao ren guo.. haha..

i'm hungry.......-__-"

peace out

2005-10-12T21:58:00.000+08:00

I'm seriously in a bad mood now.. But nothing much happened actually.. Jux that every small little thing accumulate and finally reach my limit.. I need to do something to peace out man... haha.. Tell me how to peace out yeah...

P~E~A~C~E~O~U~T

One of my Sats

2005-10-08T23:58:00.000+08:00

A pervert talked to me yesterday. So yucky.. Dun wanna tell me who is he den wad got crush on me la all these stupid stuffs.. So qian da..

Anyway today went for tuition at Christine house and was quite funny and Joo Siang told me and Char some racist jokes. Hahaha.. That was funny.. Ask me if you wanna know the joke.. lol. but my dad didnt laugh when i told him and he said,"My that story of the snail is better," haha qian da de lao pa..

Then after that he told me how he live last time. In short, he's reprimanding me in another way. HAha but it's like listening to bedtime stories.. So nice..

Ok. this is funny. =)

2005-09-23T20:11:00.000+08:00

1. There are 3 Male and 1 Female pencils in a box.
The Female pencil got pregnant !!
Which Male pencil is responsible?
THE ONE WITHOUT THE RUBBER.

2. Woman in bed with husband's best friend,
phone rings! "YES".. OK, BYE".
She turns to her lover and says,
THAT'S MY HUBBY, SAYS HE'S NOW GOLFING WITH YOU.

3. Three Roosters: normal, retarded and a gay.
Normal : cock-a-doodle-dooo !!!
Retarded : doodle-cock-a-dooo !!!
Gay : any-cock-will dooo !!!

4. Three Guys were introduced to a girl.
Hi,.... I'm Peter, not a saint.
I'm Paul not a POPE.> > I'm John not a Baptist...
The girl replied.. Hi.. I'm Mary, not a VIRGIN.

5. Girlfriends are appetizers. Tastes good at any time.
Mistresses are Tomyams..Hot and spicy. Eaten frequently.
WIVES are Maggie. Eaten when there's nothing to eat.!!!

6. Income Tax office asked a Prostitute why she puts her occupation as CHICKEN FARMER.
She replied: I RAISED 5,000 COCKS LAST YEAR.!!

7. Yesterday's News :- A nun jogging at Jogger' Park was raped by 4 guys.
Today's News :- Nearly 100 nuns found jogging at the park.

8. Why do Indians talk non stop?
Guess.... Still dunno? OK lah.....
Answer : Becoz they left their full stop on their forehead

It's juz that..

2005-09-21T21:55:00.000+08:00

Jux read through my diary. My personal diary.. Didnt realised that so many things happened to me.. Lol.. Its good anyway cuz i've learn new things. I mean after reading through it..

Still remembered that time, Debx told me it happened bcuz it's my fault.. Partly.. Ya i thought so too.. Sometimes facts are hard to accept.. But i'll jux have to accept it.. Ya Debz? Dont be too optimistic.. Haha.. Remember to knock some sense out of me once in a while cuz sometimes i'm blur.. Lol..

Anyway, thankx Bunny! There to cheer me up when i'm not feeling happy.. Haha.. Cant stop myself from telling him my probs when chatting with him.. Bu chuo bu chuo..

off to watch tv!

Meaningful Song

2005-09-18T21:31:00.000+08:00

Hillary Duff- Someone's watching over me

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is just you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
Took this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe

That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe

That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me

Someone's watching over me

It really is SL season

2005-09-17T10:28:00.000+08:00

SL.. Only Debz know wad izzit.. And char.. it think. Haha.. I totally agree that it's SL season.. First Char, then Debz then me.. What is happening! .Juz wrote sth to her abt freeing her heart first..
If both of you are fated, then it's fated..dont think too much anymore.. dont even think abt whether he still likes you.. let nature takes it's course.. Dont push yourself any deeper into the hole.. it's difficult to climb out.. really.. And i told you that we'll go thru this difficult times together rite? I mean really THROUGH IT.. So that we're not dwelling in it anymore.. and we wont be affected by it even a tinny weeny bit.. Here you are.. transfixed in a problem that only you yourself can solve.. Have you ever thought how your frens are feeling?
Yes.. We need time to heal.. But only if we let time heal, then we will recover.. It's difficut i know.. it's difficult.. but i think that's the only way.. i think..

My Lit is DEAD

2005-09-16T21:32:00.000+08:00

Today Lit and amath papers.. TOOO difficult.. I'm Dead.. Lol.. Lit essay nv write fnish haha.. 4 essays in 1hr3omins.. But nvm! The good thing is it's OVER! Dont have to be stress abt it anymore.. Haha.. Now is physics.. Another killer subject.. God BLESS me..

2005-09-11T00:29:00.000+08:00

Fine.. I will hate you since you want me to..

Luck is always not on my side

2005-09-08T09:04:00.000+08:00

Yes.. I know that i am VERY SUAY.. First i wore my school shoes ytd and got blister. What the.. i wore it for so many times and now den i hav blister.. That's still ok.. Then after lesson, SOMEBODY in my class play some stupid soccer in the stupid canteen and HIT me.. Wtf.. Mood was alr like.. so damn BAD.. and still wanna agitate me so in the end i cried.. But they also not purposely one.. haiz cant blame.. But i wish to strangle them..
In the afternoon when i'm at home, Mum was quite busy so wanted me to look after ryan.. Papa asked me to bring Ryan down for a walk so i did.. Haa... i got myself hurt again.. Ryan stepped on my hand and i got a blue black.. Sianx diaoz.. He everytime anyhow stepped i also wont hav blue black.. and now.. this is so suay.. and
FinallY! I overslept today.. Supposed to reached school at 8am.. And i slept till 8.10.. Wanna go for lesson also cannot.. Cuz it ends at 9am.. So got scolded by my mum.. How the hell will i noe tt my alarm clock wont ring!! She think i'm psychic or what!
At least i got a good news.. Ryan is happy when he sees me.. haha...

Learning

2005-09-04T22:32:00.000+08:00

I've learnt something.. Something which is important.. Something which will let me carry on my life easier.. Something meaningful to me.. That is.. Never know too much.. Not abt textbooks knowledge all these of cuz.. But abt truth..Facts.. Sometimes i wonder why are we born to the world? To live life to the fullest? And then die? We grow up being hurt by family members and frens, gain knowledge and in the end still die.. Strange world.. Still i'm learning to be strong.. And to live my life the way i want.. To live it to the fullest..

Ominious Dream!

2005-08-31T20:25:00.000+08:00

I had a bad dream last night. Forgot most of it.. But still remember the main thing.. That is Char asked me to accompany her to Hell.. HELL! Not Heaven.. HEll! Lolx.. She said she left her things there so wanted to take it.. I was reluctant at first but in the end still accompany her.. So we looked for a man who will bring us down and he warned us that it's very scary down there, the things wont pop out suddenly, but everywhere.. I dunno how i got to Hell, jux remembered i was there.. Interestingly, i knew what was happening in the mortal world.. It was like watching tv, jux that it's not a tv, but a huge and big bubble.. Then this stupid man told my family members,"This gal wont wake up so easily.Bcuz of sth sth..(iforgot)" Wad the heck! I was cursing the man for not warning me the risk of not able to wake up.. But Char can return! Then! My Mama woke me up.. Lolz..

~~~~~~The End~~~~~~

2005-08-27T00:25:00.000+08:00

This blogskin is so cute! Lol.. Hao le.. Wo yao shui le.. A peaceful nite to me..

2005-08-20T21:33:00.000+08:00

Blogging is so tiring.. Lol.. I'm lazy to blog.. Anyway prelims are coming! Eeek! i'm scared.. Bless me.. Haha.. I cannot let my papa and mama be disappointed again.. jiayou! gambatae..

to see the future of mine..

The Fateful Day T_T

2005-08-12T14:21:00.000+08:00

Its such a disappointment.. I got B3 for my Olevel chi.. Sianz.. Still pondering whether i shld retake my Exams.. But then retake so.. haiz.. sianz diaoz.. But i think i will re take.. Jiayou ba..

Boring National Day

2005-08-09T21:18:00.000+08:00

It's national day today.. and i'm stuck at home doing homework the whole day! I should have gone out.. Forgot that today is national day when Eileen asked me to go out.. T_T..
Anyway, i've decided that i must either go for the countdown for the New Year or Chinese New Year.. haha..

My Fear

2005-08-03T22:27:00.000+08:00

Qi yue yao dao le! Lolx it's stupid i know. But i'm scared! A few days ago i'm still feeling stress. Many types of stress. Have exams stress, scared-of-ghosts stress, take-the-lift stress and some other stress. lol. It's DAMN scarey taking the lift alone.. I keep looking at the reflection from the mirror to see if anyone or anyTHING is behind me. And i cannot stand at the back! Cuz i will rmb the ahpek in the lift from The Eye. Wah lao loh.. Some more 13 storey.. Take to 1st storey also need a long time.. I think i have lift phobia..
Anyway yesterday when i reach home, i took the lift, but the door sth wrong with it.. It closed and opened again and again.. So i pressed the close button again after the first time, but it opened again! And i'm scared by that time.. Lol.. So came outta lift to wait for the next lift. But the door still dont wanna close!! Then i decided to walk the stairs. "Bang" the door closed. "yay" so i turned back.. Know what.. The door opened again.. Wah.. I ran to the staircase..
So I climbed, and the higher i climbed, the darker it became.. Diaox loh.. I'm SO VERY scared, and I'm only at the fifth floor! Dunno for how long then i reached my level.. Suddenly it became so bright.. Lol.. Then i pressed the doorbell.. Guess what.. Nobody is at home.. Wah biang.. If something is chasing me i will die for sure.. But luckily, i brought my keys..

Anyway, i found out that if i'm feeling stress or whatever, i will eat a lot! SHIT! Why izzit i'm opposite!?

Eating on the street

2005-07-30T23:58:00.000+08:00

Today i went to MOS alone and realised that bringing a jacket is NOT ENOUGH.. I'm nearly freezed to death there and i could not go to the toilet.. The cold air kept hitting onto my face.. Diaoz, i thought i was in Iceland.. Haha.. After studying for 2hr30mins, I got out of that place or else i'll be dead.. DEAD.. Luckily i'm still alive... Heng ar... If not i would not have the chance of eating on the street.. -_____-"
Me and Debz bought frozen food from 7eleven and heated it.. Then we found a place outside Causeway point.. Of cuz we took pictures first.. Anyway the food was nice.. Mine only cost $2.30.. Cheap behz.. It's call chicken briyani(curry rice), then deb's one was dunno wad wad wad.. In short is spaghetti la.. Dont know why they write until so long.. So here's our pic!

CLASH!!!

2005-07-28T21:06:00.000+08:00

I jux found out that this Saturday is also Ryan's birthday party!! Which one shld i go nehz? Mi ni mo ni mi ni mo! I think i will go Char's one.. Haha.. Then make her laugh when she's singing by giving her those stupid faces.. Lol..
But if i dont go for Ryan that buffet, then my mama will be unhappy.. But then... it's so FAR!! At pasir ris lehz.. Later so tired still mux take MRT home.. Sit until my butt rot also haven reach.. Then during the trip nobody will talk to me.. I will be even more bored.. But then i wanna eat free food lehz.. Buffet very nice one.. Wah.. Drooling now.. JUX KIDDING.. And shit! I haven choose what to wear on Sat..

My Dream

2005-07-27T20:33:00.000+08:00

Ok I'm gonna finish this real fast cuz i'll be dead if my mum caught me using the com!

So last nite i had this dream.. What izzit abt.. SECRET.. haha.. I feel that God is telling me through dreams what's bothering me.. At first i thought that what a strange dream i had.. But after a conversation with debz.. (not abt my dream, but jux dreams abt blah blah blah all these la) Wo xiang tong le.. Hehe.. I know what is bothering me.. Or rather i know what part of my problem is.. So.. ya.. Praise the Lord! It's like a weight lifted off me when i got the answer.. Wahaha..

Anyway this coming Sat is Char's singing competition! Good luck!!!

2005-07-24T22:03:00.000+08:00

Cute Kittens..

No Idea.. Lost..

2005-07-23T23:18:00.000+08:00

Today at cell group at Ms Sherine's house i shared with her abt my insomnia and blah blah blah.. She asked,
"Is something bothering you?"
"I dunno.."
Lolx.. My tears nearly spill out sia.. Tsk Tsk.. What is happening? I have no idea.. I feel so heavy..(NOT that i ate a lot) She prayed for me that I will pour out all my troubles to God.. Yeah... Maybe i have not been telling God my troubles.. I wish that I can.. But i jux dunno what is my problem.. I really wanna pour everything out to my frens but how..? I dont even know my own problems.. How to tell them my problems.. They are locked somewhere deep down that i dont even know how to unlock it.. Haiz.."God, please tell me what are my problems."
Sometimes I wish that a Big bIg cRy will solve ALL the problems.. But wanna cry cannot cry.. Wanna sleep cannot sleep.. What am i suppose to do! Will somebody please make me cry so that i can shun bian cry everything out!!!??? So so so so so frustrated, helpless.. What to do.. I cant even help myself so how do other ppl help me? Some questions i asked myself...'Am i leading a happy life? okok la.. Am i truly happy? dunno.." Diaox.... Maybe i'm like this is not bcuz of one problem.. But the problems that are accumulated together and now then they affect me..Cuz i dont really tell other ppl my problems.. Even though it's bothering me, i'll jux let it past.. Not solving it.. Not tending to it...Thinking that i'll be ok.. Keeping them to the place where nobody can reach it except me...
I'm not as strong as you all think.. Jux like machines do break down at times.. I'm not strong.. I'm not i'm not im not! I'm jux a human.. A human with feelings.. haiz.. if this carries on maybe i really will suffer from depression... Lolx jk.. Depressed life..
I jux realised why i felt like crying when Ms sherine asked me the question.. It's the tone she used.. Maybe it's not the tone.. But the question itself.. It's like... so caring... Like somebody is truly concern about me.. Not like those casual qns like How are you etc... Yeah.. ke neng wo zhen de que fa fu mu de ai.. It's not that they dont love me.. But i dont sense it.. Dont feel it.. I dont even feel love from frens.. But such a short question can make me realised that someone still care.. Miracle from God...

Diaox.. Dunno how to explain and i dun even noe what's all the shit i've typed...

Ryan's Chinese Birthday!

2005-07-23T09:15:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was Ryan's chinese birthday and Mum bought a birthday cake for him.. Diaox loh.. Remember his chinese birthday so clearly and forgot my english birthday. -__-".. Haha.. So we sang a birthday song to him.. Ok.. Not we.. Is me.. And we took photos with him!

Anyway these few days he was soooo noisy. Kept crying and crying and screaming. Everything also dont want.. Walk different direction also cannot! Diaox.. Why nehz? I also dunno.. But yesterday he cried again.. I carried him and sang to him.. Guess what? He stopped crying. Muahaha.. But then when i changed to Twinkle twinkle little star, he turned to look at me and cry again.. pengz..

Miserable Me

2005-07-22T21:32:00.000+08:00

Finally it's friday. What a difficult week.. A dull week. A wretched, melancholic week.. A lot unpleasant of things have been happening. But the problem is i could not recall what had happen.. Dont know why I could not list out the specific things which affect my mood.. It's just that i feel so DOWN this week.. DOWN .. U know.. DOWN!!! What the... Depressed.. Maybe i suffer from Depression.. Haha.. Kidding.. I'm an optimistic person.. And it's not my THAT THING ok..

Anyway, last night Ms Sharon message me and said she had "nominated me as the flag bearer" for ndp.. Wah diaox loh.. And want me to do my best. I dont want! What's so good about that.. Cuz Sock Geok said she envy me.. Wah.. Diaox again loh.. I already sianz until dunno like what shit.. plus the things that have been happening.. WHY! Why is this happening to me.. Why so many things happen? AiyERRRRR.. Hate my life

Frustrated
I have to buck up..

Everything is My Fault

2005-07-18T19:19:00.000+08:00

Yeah everything is my fault.. He bit the cupboard is my fault.. He PULL the fan down and broke the blades is MY FAULT TOO.. Then when is ur fault? When i die? cai shi ni men de chuo ma..? Then i die for u all to see la.. But i'm not so stupid to die.. I still hav lots to things haven done yet.. Like travelling to other countries to eat and to play.. Hmph.. Only know how to push the blame to us.. Teach us not to be like this, but both of u still do that.. K la k la my fault la.. Lazy to argue with u all alr.. Jux when i thought life is better than last week when i met the security guard today to open the backgate for me, u all spoil it all.. Suady suay life... Destroy my mood to watch tv and caused me to miss to most important part! Diaox...

Tag Board!

2005-07-17T15:42:00.000+08:00

Yay! I've got a tag box! Tag me tag me! I had a hard time looking for it.. Lolx.. Muahaha.. Monk u can tag alr..

Angry Again!

2005-07-16T23:40:00.000+08:00

What the.. I'm angry at this late hour.. This morning alr made me angry now still wanna provoked me! Shit u ar.. I only put that paper flower on my table and u said it's waste paper.. Idiot.. It's not like i crushed it or something! Wad a bad week.. Why cant i jux have a peaceful day!!! And that is MY TABLE it's not blocking u and even if it is, it will be ME.. NOT you la.. So idiotic.. Nag and nag nag.. Den bring up last time those things and nag together.. wad "shi ji sui de ren bu yao yi zhi gei ren ma la.." wad loh.. u dun scold den will i be scolded? CDs put there u dun like.. den put where??? Floor ar.. siaox.. U think u have a lot of space for me to put?? U think u have spare drawers? If no den shutup.. everytime spoil my days.. I rather be deaf than to hear u nag.. Chat on phone also scold.. I dint chat everyday loh.. Sms u also scold.. So unreasonable.. hate u hate u hate u.. eat maggie mee u scold.. FINE.. Play com u scold.. FINE.. i'm angry for the WHOLE WEEK! U think my table is messy? Then u tell me where to put my books.. No place and where do u wan me to keep! Shit u loh.. Say out my reasons u say i rebuked.. Then wad! Listen to u barking izzit? Siaox.. If my table is messy.. fine! i wont be angry.. But it's not messy now ok and i jux pack it not long.. kns.. and i haven even find it messy AND i'm the one USING THE TABLE.. not u la.. Even if it's messy, it's me that will be affected.. ME ME ME!! ARRRRRRRRRRRRRgh! i'm going to vent out my anger!!! But it's so late and i cannot do anything!!
I hate talking to u!!!!!!!!!!!!! Dunno wad the heck u talking when i went out today.. I alr told u i going woodlands and u still wad wad wad.. Sth wrong with ur hearing den dun maligned ppl la.. Spoil ppl's mood..

UNREAsOnaBle FAMILY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
UnreasonABLE FAther!!!!!!!!!!
UNREASonablE MOTHER!!!!!!!!!!!
UNreAsonABLE SISTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i need food to calm me down.. T.M.D... F.S..

2005-07-16T22:42:00.000+08:00

Causeway that Mos burger is COLD. VERY cold. Remember to bring a jacket if u wanna study there. Lolx.. And Dont ever buy protracter at causeway that Popular cuz it's BIG!! TOO big..

I jux noe some RGS gals are so....... dotz... JIAN! Slut! Listen alr i'm also angry!

diaox yi ge..

Anyway i saw debbie and jes at Popular and debz said she caught me red handed! pengz..

Stupid Joke by Monk

2005-07-16T22:39:00.000+08:00

Joke of the Day: A guy walk past a shop and said "Shhhhhhh!"

Why?

Cuz he walked past the shop call 'Hush Puppies'

***Pengzz***

2005-07-15T20:50:00.000+08:00

I've got a pimple right beside my nose! Nah.. That's nothing serious..
Seriously, what are frens for? Are they there to accompany u, to lend u a shoulder and then in the end hurt u again? *sign*
Toleration and understanding and trust are important in a friendship.. But there's a limit to one's patience.. I cant tolerate everything all the time, but i have to.. Diaox.. Haha..
Anyway, I have oral practice today and guess how much i've got? Only 28 or 29/40. Mrs Azwiza wants me to score 30 and above.. pengz..

Ouch.. The pimple is pain...

Fairylandlesssss

Hacker!!

2005-07-14T22:13:00.000+08:00

My hotmail is 'hacked' by a guy.. What the.. Where's my privacy!! Hao cai wo qing xu wen ding.. If not i will throw things again.. Haha.. Anyway i've changed my passwords.. NOBODY is gonna hack in anymore..

Btw i received a keychain from monk!! Da mu niu niu nai.. Haha.. And i forgot i hav Amath test tml.. pengz.. Too late to study alr cuz i'm going to SLEEP!!zzzz

Chinese Olevel listening compre tml!! Wish me luck! ^-^

Angry Day

2005-07-13T19:17:00.000+08:00

Arrgh!!! Qi Si Wo Le!!! I'm so so so so so so.. du lan..? Yay.. I know how to use this word. Lolx.
Haix.. What does she want!? Sit down and study for hours without moving or whatever???? Huh!! She wants me to die izzit!?? If that's that case i will die for her to see loh. She thinks it's so easy to study?? Come la! Why dont she do it for me to see!! It's jux a haircut.. How much time will it waste!!?? She might as well dont let me eat, or sleep or go toilet. Cuz it's WASTING TIME.! And I dont like to eat at home!Everytime cook vege and still say u alr give me money to have lunch.. When i bought something from Old Chang Kee, u nag nag and nag.. What the.. U say u want me to save money! PLEASE! It's only THAT much a week. U think that food is cheap?? And dont ever ask me to help u do things OK.. Cuz its WASTING MY TIME.for god sake.. I HAVE to STUDY.. HMPH!

Hmph! Qi si wo le.. Zhong yu fa xie chu lai le.. Jux now i angry unti throw my things everywhere, bang the door and draw on the walls and ignore them when they talk to me.. I'm TOOO angry to talk to them.. It will waste my time.. Diaox..

A Badddd Day

Nothing Special

2005-07-11T22:26:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna KILL PPL!!! Kidding.. Stupid GB Day. Luckily i wore full u.. If not have to write a report of why I never wear.

Bad day bad day. I slept for 4 periods of e and a math, but i still know what Mrs Goh is teaching.. Haha..

I'm gonna kill that monk..

Out-dated Me

2005-07-08T04:36:00.000+08:00

First time using bloggy! People have already started using for a long time and now then i use. Diaox..